It’s the time of year when we begin to think about setting intentions. I have pondered many ideas about what this means to me this year and to be honest, I am not sure that I will be setting any distant goals or ideals to strive for. I have decided to treat 2019 more like my yoga practice and to embrace the journey rather than the destination.
Much of my life, I have made the mistake of believing that when I finish a project, lose 10 pounds or finally reach a goal I have been striving for that things will somehow be easier or better. However, throughout the last year, my intentions have been ever changing and with every accomplishment, there is always something more. When I look back, the end game was never what meant anything – it was always getting there. The moments in between whether they were joyous or heartbreaking were what made life the most full and interesting.
This last year I worked so hard for things that simply weren’t meant for me. I jokingly told a good friend last month that “I know what I should be doing, but I keep doing something else. This year, I am going to listen to my intuition for once.” How often do you work for something that you think you want, only to figure out that wasn’t what you wanted at all? I have been in that tired loop for far too long friends – it’s time to break the cycle.
I have decided if I show up every single day and spend time doing things that mean something to me, whatever is meant to blossom from that will probably be even more beautiful than what I had planned. Another thing I have decided is that no matter what I “intend”, the Universe may have other plans, and if so, it will lead me in a different direction anyway, so instead of intending for a destination, I am intending on a practice.
Every day, I intend to show up fully, be present, meditate, practice yoga, get sweaty, laugh, write, eat delicious food, enjoy friends, really see my kiddos, love my husband and be the human I want to be. I think the secret is in the practice – the day to day – and getting caught up on a destination may take you in the wrong direction. I am not saying goals aren’t fun to work toward, but this year my goals will be influenced by my joy. They will shift and change to be in alignment with who I am today – not who I am striving for tomorrow. They will be a practice, just like yoga – one day at a time I will put in the work and create something beautiful.